The Epic Journey....

These are my thoughts, my obsessions, my wants and desires. These are my struggles, my fears, and my shortcomings, this is my journey.

why do i feel like i screwed up with the romanian?

there was the whole incident at a rather poular store where he put his arm around my shoulder and then sensually touched my neck this week. what am i suppose to do with that? long ago he said he wanted to be friends so i accepted it and now he goes and does this, among other things hes done in the past thats made me question everything. not to mention that we spent alot of time togethet this week.

i feel like im missjng the signs on this one…im not good with subtle crap.

Some thoughts…..

Honestly, the more time i spend at my parents house, the worse i feel emotionally, spiritually and psychologically. I always feel trapped. If I have to sleep over because they decided to leave for the weekend and I have to babysit my dog, I feel sooooo trapped. Its as if im sucked right back into the horrible vortex that is here and what it felt like when i still lived here. 

Moving out was he best freaking decision I ever made in my life. If I would have stayed here any longer Im sure I would have had a mental break down. 

What would be the best way to remove all the negativity and horribleness that I feel is stuck with me after I leave their house??

Comparisons

I find it very interesting how in a week literally a sunday to the next sunday, there can be a complete change in my vibrational vortex. 

Last sunday I felt confident, sexy, fantastic, hopeful, optimistic, positive. 
Right now its about 40 mins away from Sunday and I feel the exact opposite.

I have noticed that if I feel a lack of hope then my positive vibe/feelings in myself start to diminish. I tried to recapture the feeling of last sunday on multiple occasions but i found it very hard to do so. 

Personally tho, this week there were a few moments where i literally was about to loose it, all because of some personal issues that I thought had been dealt with resurfaced. It made me realize that I carry around shame still for something that im pretty sure i was not the cause of almost 4 years ago now and to which I am still feeling repercussions to this day. This is directly linked to body image and self acceptance. How can I love myself if I am still ashamed of my body? Its like I carry around a dirty secret. 

I guess this is just a blip in the road to self acceptance and body positive and all that. I need to solider through. 

justbeingnamaste:

madamlaydebug:

Make a wish

This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, Smiles when sadness intrudes, Rainbows to follow the clouds, Laughter to kiss your lips, Sunsets to warm your heart, Hugs when spirits sag, Beauty for your eyes to see, Friendships to brighten your being, Faith so that you can believe, Confidence for when you doubt, Courage to know yourself, Patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.

justbeingnamaste:

madamlaydebug:

Make a wish

This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, Smiles when sadness intrudes, Rainbows to follow the clouds, Laughter to kiss your lips, Sunsets to warm your heart, Hugs when spirits sag, Beauty for your eyes to see, Friendships to brighten your being, Faith so that you can believe, Confidence for when you doubt, Courage to know yourself, Patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.

The Basic Steps of Manifesting »

positivitycity:

I get multiple questions daily about how to manifest something wanted. From now on I’ll be using this guide, adding in any specifics I happen to think of pertaining to the specific situation, because it’s always essentially the same.


Desire - the contrast of life (good and bad experiences)…

i just had an example of law of attraction and manifesting…

yesterday morning and this morning while i was driving my automatic car, i pictured myself briefly driving standard. i get alot of enjoyment driving standard.
tonight the romanian asked me if i wanted to go for a drive so i was like sure cause he has a standard car. it endwd up that i had to drive him to the bus station and then i had to drive myself home.

so i got to drive manual like i wanted to. thank you universe!

jazzypom:

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kinvoya:

truebluemeandyou:

truebluemeandyouHow to Answer the Top 35 Asked Interview Questions. Reblogging one of my most popular posts with clearer images. Go to the link for the highest resolution.

How to Answer the Top 35 Asked Interview Questions from The Undercover Recruiter here. Posted for friends looking for jobs this summer. Unfortunately you may also be asked illegal questions and these are two pretty good articles here and here.

The most important how to you’ll ever read…well, maybe not, but it’s really, really valuable if you ever want to get a job.

Always reblog

Always reblog.